Hi hi hi
I don't even know if anyone reads this even kind of. I am doing work and making projects. I am worried and excited.
I think I might start to use this as a space to talk about the work I am doing/the ideas I am exploring in my work. I might also start posting film reviews here? maybe? or that might become another blog. Also maybe I'll actually start telling people that this blog exists. People like my tumblr but does it mean they would look at this?
Uncertain
New Project =investigation of longing and belonging, role models, cultural narratives and desire:
Weird specific culture of being a weird little kid with alt-parents and learning how to be :
- public television (TVO & PBS) and only getting cable at age 7
- the public library (books and educational programing)
- Blockbuster
- Eloise
- Madeline
- Ramona
- My Neighbor Totoro
- Drop Dead Fred
- Later: Daria/Buffy/Reboot
- Having no real friends until I was 12
- Being given a dog because I didn't have friends and was so sad
- Being gay as a kid and being confused about the possibility of that/being accused of being gay at a young age
- Being a clumsy kid who daydreams too much
- Being a kid who the other kids hate
- Being a kid who sucks at school
- Lying down in weird, inappropriate places
- Spending time alone.
- being bigger than other kids
- early puberty leading to an embrace of counter-culture in some ways? (started puberty at 8 became interested in not pop music at age 9?)
Going to work on videos and books I think I think.
Things I need to take time to do:
- go on walks
- embroider
- tweeze my eyebrows
- read more
- cook more
- go to the gym.
